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10:11 June.01/2020


This morning it is still raining.
And today feel happy, like a new person
Even depending on your gut activitiy and what you eat, and when.
Even that changes how you feel and perceive things,
And that's just one small factor
So everyday feels like completely new day
In feeling, like a different person

10:36 May.31.2020


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today is torrential rain. Max comfortability.Is there a world
that it is always raining?
22:38 May.30/2020



My mom rescued this kitten maybe a week ago from a pack of crows
attacking the back of his head and dropping him.
She said, that the crows could eat
tim hortons instead, instead of him, so she rescued him
When she brought him to her home
he was okay and started eating after a while
I think he knows he is lucky to be saved.


00:21 May.30.2020


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in the own confusion, you already answer it for yourself.
12:04 May.29/2020


It's an interesting world,
but when the day I die and if come back to this planet
(reincarnation?),
going to file a complaint. lol.
23:27 May.24/2020


11:06 May.20/2020


14:56 May.15/2020

When you find out your hometown has a huge occult/mystic/pagan/secret society
culture to it historically and to present day, it really makes a lot of sense lol.

The place is Victoria, BC. I wouldn't want to live there again,
but there is something that has been drawing me to there for years.
I don't know what it is. I was having dreams
about it last year specifically the theme of books/libraries and that place,
It's like there is something to be found there

05-15-2020 13:54


15:58 May.06/2020


13:50 May.02/2020



clear

03:19 Apr. 30.2020


apr.20
15:35 Apr.29/2020



today was tested using a swab up the nose. More like a probing. Now awaiting test result (hoping to be negative)

19:03 Apr. 20.2020


21:04 Apr.10.2020


an exhausting and cruel world. It will be nice when I get to leave.

19:23 apr.09.2020


11:38 mar.30.2020



today made a kaguya.


20:49 mar.29.2020


its movie magic

22:58 mar.20.2020


The life without the bottom key.
It stil functions however (have gotten used to the texture).


15:10 mar.20.2020


aujourd'hui est un jour différent. aujourd'hui est le même.


08:30 mar.18.2020


``l`ii`` l ````` ある日、かかしの村に行きたい ```l ` i`` `i```


22:55 mar.17.2020


Here will write all the incidents I witnessed someone screaming in
public or hearing a scream in the past weeks.

1 - Right now its 7:36am. Heard a man calling "someone help me"
outside somewhere. Sounds desparate/sad.
I went outside but I don't see anyone on the main road or street

2 - While waiting for the bus at the bus station last week
at 8:00PM heard a woman yelling at I thought was someone.
She looked like was screaming and mad at a boyfriend perhaps
But soon realized she doesn't seem to be yelling to anyone in particular
It was hard to make out because this
area is wide and has lots of fences and cement obstructing the view
but could hear her out of sight just walking around ranting and yelling

3 - Three days ago when coming back from
a walk was listening to music and a metal song started playing.
This song doesn't have vocals so I took out the buds and in the parking lot
of the 711 there was a man who gave a very loud wail and had his head down on his jeep
with a woman with a backpack standing near him looking stoic
And he yells "how could you do this to me??!"
And she mumbles something
I assume this is a breakup I was witnessing

4 - The last time I was at the T&T groceries I
was down and aisle and heard a woman screaming so I
went running to see what was happening
To me in that time my brain thought it sounded
like someone was being attacked or dragged away
Everyone at the checkouts were frozen like statues watching
and I saw the automatic doors close and saw an employee and security
So it seemed to be a shoplifting incident of the person stealing and running out
while the employee screamed to get attention

5 - There was one or two more before the T&T
incident but at the moment cannot remember the situation
Also witnessing a lot of people just walking around and talking madly
and issuing orders at people who are not there


regarding the scream I heard this morning I'll make a report of
it at the police community station
Because my phone is not turning on

Of course everything here must open at 9am,
which you think is early
but when things happen or you are up at 5am ish its like a waiting game

07:44 mar.07.2020


21:09 mar.01.2020




23:20 feb.23.2020



sore muscles feel interesting
Though having body aches and pain makes me crazy because its like being back in those days of bed rest,
so even though this kind of sore is supposed to be good for the body
even though you have to feel like you're dying first
of course

22:34 feb.20.2020


scary

23:11 feb.19.2020


16:08 feb.26.2020


When was younger my mom ordered this software
from the scholastic book form called "programming for kids BASIC"
or something similar to that.
It was for making small simple games using the programming language BASIC.
It had steps and lessons with narration and text
When tried looking for it now, cannot find any trace of it. Like it never existed
It makes you think of the things you used to do,
no longer exist on the internet in any form, and like it never existed
Even though people now use C,
C+, python, etc and BASIC is no longer used as much or mentioned perhaps
(I couldn't remember the language the software
used until It came to me one day because of the pun BASIC/simple), I remember it being
fun to learn and use to make some very primitive games for own amusement.
I think also since it was a software sold through
our school system perhaps it was not widely distributed.
A lot of times people would say if it was
on the internet or uploaded digitally it was there forever, which is not the case sometimes

Maybe it's like a lament to things remember doing but
no one else knows or experienced it.
It's like you have need to perhaps recreate it

Which in ways maybe is also why its good
there's a way to make websites like these again

09:28 feb.14.2020


not available

13:13 feb.01.2020


suspense

20:48 jan.31.2020


14:36 jan.26.2020


21:22 jan.15.2020


20:45 jan.07.2020


-- -- - - - --time is meaningless


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13:44 November 15.2019



15:40 November 08.2019


"The Frightful Five, better known as Apple, Google, Microsoft, Amazon, and Facebook."

21:32 October 26.2019


There is this feeling. Like something bad is going to happen.
Or rather specifically, something bad has already happened to someone. Like a death.
It's this feeling like intuition but there's no logic for it. Like psychic ability. Maybe more than one person or people or animals.
I don't think death is necessarily bad
But it is like being hidden from.
Trying to shake it away because its not logcial to feel like this so hoping its wrong.

23:57 October 20.2019


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20:44 October 11.2019



spa night
18:46 September 28.2019



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14:11 July 07.2019


Went outside. Overstimulated but its okay. If I don't go outside I don't
feel good either way. The horror shop was cool.
Got pokemon transfer pak for n64. Hands feel dirty. Rest will write in my private diary.

18:06 July 05.2019


Ok. Uh...Rat God. I need a new ear on the right and also please fix my tooth.
It isn't too bad but you know.
Thought to give it a shot. Oh my god.

22:58 July 03.2019


someone is whistling outside somewhere at night again

22:34 June 30.2019


20:41 June 21.2019


so calm

and it all comes down
08:59 June 14.2019


a World peace 1 a

20:16 June 11.2019


11:47 June 10.2019


19:28 June 02.2019


21:00 May 31.2019


There is two movies (well one of them, the other might have been a tv show)
that scared me a lot as a kid
and when growing up, but cannot find out what the titles of these movies are.
The first one was a movie that begun as what I think was an older time setting,
where a young man is walking with a girl along a train track.
His boot lace gets stuck in the track
and he can't get it out or his foot out of his boot.
There is a train coming and the girl is screaming and he does die,
since the next scene is something of a mourning or funeral scene.

I have no idea what the rest of the movie was even about, but I remember that beginning part
and the fear of watching someone you love about to die to be terrifying.
The cover of the vhs tape had a green apple and a red apple on it on a white background.

The next was when I was older but it also took place in an older time
(I don't know if it was when the salem witch trials took place, or after)
where a girl, father and mother are in their house and a mob is approaching.

The mother hides the young girl somewhere and she hides in the attic,
the father tries to stop the mob
but they get past him and get the mother and take her out to the yard and
hang her on the tree (because she was a witch?)
which the girl witnesses from inside the house.
All I remember after is that right after that it starts to take place in the modern time,
but also don't remember anything else that takes place and whether or not
I even watched much after,
even though I feel that I did, I have no recollection of anything after that.

This was on a random tv channel, so I don't have any dvd cover or anything to remember by.
It was scary and intrusive when a scene would keep replaying
in my mind over and over,
especially as a kid, and you'd have to really focus on something
else to try to get it out.

It's also interesting when movies that aren't horror had moments like these that were
scarier because they really lingered in your thoughts

22:04 May 16.2019

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